I Am- a Writing piece by StardustLegend

[StardoostLegend]

I am #####


I am ##### ## <F@17VR3>
I ########## #### <am> the beast that forever stalks <you.> ##.
Even when <I am.> ## ## not there, <I.> ## will forever linger within the jungle ### ## ## ####.
<I.> ## will always put <you.> ## down ### ######## ## ###### and pin# <you.> ## down helplessly, watching <you.> ## squirm like the pathetic worm <you are.> # ##.
Every <victory.> ####### of mine is a constant reminder that <I.> ## will always above <you.> ##.
Even when <you.> # win, <you.> # will never fully escape <my.> ## grasp.
<you will never be anything more than what you are now.>
<I have taken over your past, I walk among you in your present, and someday, I will strike you in your future.>
<I will chase you until the day you die, and follow you through hell.>
<and the day of my final victory, you will realize…>
<…I WAS RIGHT.>



<We are.> # ## ######## ## <M0#K34E>
<We> #### are the serpents that live among <you> ## like the silence of the night.
<you say> # #### ## ##### that <you are> # ## unaffected by <our strikes> ##### #####.
But even after the bite, the pain stays with <you> ## <from our> ## ## ## ### poison.
Like the beast #### ## <F@17VR3> <I will stop you> ## ##### ## from even trying.
The pain stays there and makes <you> ## start crying.
<you can remember very well the things they have said about you>
<Stupid, annoying, trash, childish; each word stabbing through you like a spear>
<you think that what they say isn’t true>
<You try to deny anything is wrong with you, but you will see that one day…>
<…IT WILL KILL YOU>



I am ###### ## <GUDJM3NT>
I am ## ######## #### ## the raptor that looms above <you> ##.
<you> # ## are always trying to run and hide from <me> ##
Trying to hide <Your> ## weaknesses from <my> ### talons.
Yet <you> # think that <you are> # ## still innocent, and that <You> # can fly with the falcons.
<It is an insult that you dare think you could be like me>
<You> # try to escape <me> ##, but <I am> ## ## always present, seen in the eyes of those around <you> ##
<You> # are insecure about the flaws within <you> ## that <you> # know are so true.
<You are afraid of looking in the mirror and truly seeing>
<the very thing that you resent being>
<so you try to hide from the truth, and deny it by not trying>
<but if you keep denying my truth…>
<… YOU WILL NEVER CHANGE>

I am ######## ##  <4G3T4N355>
I am ######## #### ## the parasite that <steals from you and keeps you bleeding> ###### ## ########
<you> ## ## forever apart of <you> ## and nothing will keep that from changing.
<I> ## steal# what <you> # need deep down within, but <you> # don’t even know it is missing.
<I am> ## ## the reason for all the screaming, without <you> ## even knowing.
<I have embedded myself into your flesh>
<and have wrapped myself around your very bones>
<I will continue to grow and you know you can’t stop me>
<And you will soon realize…>
<…WE ARE THE SAME>



I am afraid

I am afraid of failure.
I constantly fear that beast that forever stalks me.
Even when it is not there, it will forever linger within the jungle that is my mind.
It will always put me down from pursuing my dreams and pins me down helplessly, watching me squirm like the pathetic worm I am.
Every defeat of mine is a constant reminder that it will always above me.
Even when I win, I will never fully escape its grasp.
I am afraid of losing even before trying.
And I am afraid of my dreams dying even when I am constantly trying.
I fear that I wouldn’t have accomplished everything I wanted,
And that I would leave the ones who loved me disappointed.


I am affected by mockery.
They are the serpents that live among me like the silence of the night.
I like to think that I am unaffected by their words.
But even after the bite, the pain stays with me as if it was poison.
Like the beast that is failure it stops me from even trying.
The pain stays there and makes me start crying.
I remember every word that has been said about me as if it was yesterday.
Stupid, annoying, trash, childish; they are all true aren’t they?
I am probably acting weak and foolish by thinking all of this anyway,
And I will probably go down as the one who acted so childishly.


I am afraid of judgement
I am in constant fear the raptor that looms above me.
I am always trying to run and hide from it.
Trying to hide my weaknesses from its talons.
Yet I think that I are still innocent, and that I can fly with the falcons.
But instead I was hiding behind a friendly façade.
I try to escape it, but It is ever present, seen in the eyes of those around me.
I am insecure about the flaws within me that I know are so true.
I am afraid at taking a look in the mirror and seeing.
The things I’ve always despised, and the mistakes that can never have fixing.
I am afraid that if all my mistakes are open to see,
That nobody could possibly accept me.


I am ashamed of my forgetfulness.
I am forever host of the parasite that steals my dreaming.
It is forever a part of me and nothing will keep that from changing.
It steals what I need deep down within, but I don’t even know it is missing.
It is the reason for all the screaming, without me even knowing.
I constantly break promises due to my constant forgetting,
And I feel like an ungrateful burden to all those around me.
I will never be able to remember everything,
But this flaw will keep me constantly remembering.


I am afraid of death.
I am afraid of having to face the silence without even listening.
I am afraid of everything I value turning into nothing.
I am afraid of dying with my entire life as a failure.
I am afraid of dying without ever answering their mockery.
I am afraid of dying and seeing judgement for my wrong doing.
I am afraid of dying and forgetting everything I had loved,
And becoming a forgotten memory.

[StardoostLegend]

god dammit the MADA formatting and HTLM code screwed the writing up....